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About thotcriminal

Aspiring person.

Sugary smog

Sugary smog.

 

Lovely picture from my Brother’s blog.

 

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Antietam at dusk.

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Simplicity?

Everyone talks recently about simplifying their lives. What does that actually mean in reality though? Does it mean that we cut out all the clutter, or that we cut out our myriad activities, that we go vegan, or sell everything we own and live out of a backpack? I guess it can mean all these things. I have been reading a lot recently and practically every magazine and book I read references the idea of simplifying our lives, so I feel like I should give it a try.

I have had a hard year, with a lot of personal losses and at this point have very little to lose. So it seems like the perfect opportunity to try to simplify my life. What that means to me is that I am going to try to simplify ALL aspects of my life. Physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, sexual.  I have already in a way been acting as if that is my intention all along. A long term relationship ended, I quit my job of 15 years, moved across the country, and have most of my things in storage. I feel like it is a step in the right direction, though I have to admit I don’t know where to go from here.

When thinking about what it means to me to simplify my life I realized that in my mind, simplicity is found through getting rid of  “stuff”, but really it’s more than that. I have gotten rid of stuff. I gave 9 garbage bags of clothing to good will, 20 boxes of random stuff to goodwill, more than 20 boxes of books to the used book store, and anything else that friends wanted away to good homes. But I still live in a place of chaos and indecision, so the stuff is not the main component of simplifying my life. Or if it is I have more to give.

One of the problems with me in particular, is that I use stuff, and events, and the internet, to distract me from having to know myself and my feelings about everything in my life that I am not happy about. Which allows me  to delude myself into thinking that the “things” in my life are what my happiness hinges on and lets me keep pretending that it’s all right. So this is my attempt to work through simplifying my life and finding myself and what I really want in the process. What do I have to lose, right?